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So Much Unsaid

I don't sit down to write as much as I used to and I definitely don't tell you much of what is going on i my life cuz that seems to drive us apart and I don't want that, but I did want to share the hematologist appointment today went well and he doesn't want to see me for another 6 months which is a good thing. I must call my other docs to make appts for other stuff - just need to make time to look up the telephone numbers. Anyway, there is so much unsaid between us, so much more than you know, but I stopped here to poop shower and change before I head to work and just wanted to say hi and give you good news cuz I know you care and I want you to know I appreciate you. :)

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