Letters To E (and Me)

Ok so I guess the next splurge is a tablet. The why is because I sit too much for my current medical conditions and the keyboard even on this bigger phone is too small for fast typing and the voice to text sucks and I don’t think a keyboard can be connected to this phone. My hunger to shake that is placated by writing needs a bigger keyboard and laying down doesn’t work with the computers cuz the screen is up too high to see from a prone position. Makes sense if you saw the big picture. Not sure if the body is reacting to the environment or just getting older but chronic ailments that prevent writing is definitely not healthy for me in my head. Solutions seem to become more and more expensive so please learn from me and save. I want you to see an increase in you ur savings account every month. Even if it’s just a dollar more. You should have one if you don’t. I never had to think much about money until the last few years. Prices have simply not kept up with salaries and I never t...

Yay. Don't I make it easy to avoid the serious stuff with all these wandering email threads and snippets? :P :) Oh wait, I thought you wrote "Still love you" to me... ooops. lol lam.. So I wrote a message to every single person on the roommate site tonight, even the ones I wrote to during this past week since I started really trying to find a roommate again. I looked at apartments and everything is so expensive that isn't in the ghetto and even the ghetto isn't cheap. Getting old along and poor is really no fun. I see why some people just let go and die. I'm too stubborn for that and besides, somewhere inside I get off on this hopeless martyr trip. Who's mentally ill? Jesus? I didn't laugh out loud, I'm showing respect. I also see why people compromise in relationships they barely tolerate or even hate. I'm too stubborn for that too and I've had enough abuse for one lifetime. Nobody's gonna abuse me more than I do an...

I'm just guessing, but by my unique perspective, we have about a dozen email threads hanging without closure and so, here's another. This one stats off with that reality (oh, so harsh, I know {eye roll}, lol?) but jumps right into this: I'm Always Hoping by me I'm always hoping, yes always hoping Even when I'm moping, I'm still hoping. Even when I was doping, I was still hoping. It's my way of coping, to just keep hoping. Like some fish just keep swimming... I just keep hoping :) Just keep hoping Just keep hoping Just keep hoping (and fade) Did I mention I sent out a dozen more roommate messages on the roommate website last night? There's always hope. I know, because I am always hoping. You might have heard about it, it was in all the papers. ;P lol lam :) Now that I've roped you in with my flair for silly rhyme, I must go back to getting ready for the trip. Imagine how much fun we would have on a 10 hour road trip now (you'd p...

Ah, life... So I cancelled five flights to and from Nashville for the weekend and I cancelled two car reservations and I shall be driving my car up there Friday and driving my car back here Sunday night. The only drawback is the possibility of no sleep after a two day tournament Sunday night, then ball on Monday night (with maybe a couple of hours sleep. I am really getting too old for this sort of life lol.. It's complicated :) I love driving, more fun with a passenger, but I'll enjoy the ride. I'll miss sleep though lol :) Gearing myself up for another phone challenge tonight if I decide to drive down to Millenium Mall. I'm ready to put $1000 on my credit card if I have to. Maybe I'll move next year lol. At least I am laughing about it all. I hate it when I forget that I don't care about money. It's good to remember. I'll just do my best to not let the daily filth stress me out and ignore the physical ailments the filth is aggravating ((or ca...

Thank you for responding. I was waiting for you to tell me your idea about a phone, but realized I can't wait and must make a decision. I'm still curious though :) I am surprised and touched that Hannah remembers me enough to miss me. :) There are many people in this world who believe men and women can't be very close without being either siblings or lovers. It is a sexually repressed culture we live in that leads to that stereotype. I think it's the same repression that leads to homophobia, though they are not the same reaction or conclusion. Such a need to conform and not be free to explore or express individual feelings. I wonder how to teach children that boys and girls can be friends without sexuality or romance. Anyway, we can be amused, correct her, and let it be. :) Depending on practice time (if there's no rain), it may not be until 2ish before I get up there since it's 30 minutes from fields to here, then 30 minutes to shower and change if I can...